i am mainly defined by the things i dislike and don't do
i dislike bono
i don't drink booze
i dislike crowds
i don't eat meat
i dislike flying
i don't smoke
being a vegetarian, teetotal, non-smoker in northern europe is pretty much taken to mean you have serious mental problems and either need to be pitied or feared. not so much the non-smoker part these days, if you try and smoke anywhere in britain at least you get shot.
i may have minor mental problems, as have many of us! but i need not be pitied! feared i like more...
the main one that seems to bother people is the not drinking thing. i think they think i'm going to judge them or something. like i'd judge them for having brown hair when mine is blonde? i have absolutely no problem with people drinking alcohol, and i sometimes wonder if the people who dislike my not partaking are maybe a bit worried about their own booze consumption.
the easiest people to go out with are people who don't care (which is most people). but it only takes one paranoid person in a group to make me feel like a prat. like i shouldn't be in a drinking environment as i can't fully enjoy. like i shouldn't enjoy being around drunk people...
in the long run though, i'm alot happier not drinking. i was very depressed when i drank alot, and i think the alcohol was contributary to the depression. i still get depressed, but not so dramatically. things don't get broken anymore, people aren't scared of me anymore.
buddhism has also helped me with the not-drinking thing. it's ok not to drink. there's a whole world of people out there who don't drink alcohol. i'm not alone! i can experience and learn and stuff without being off my face, which is what alot of nothern european culture at least seems to be grounded in...
i dislike bono
i don't drink booze
i dislike crowds
i don't eat meat
i dislike flying
i don't smoke
being a vegetarian, teetotal, non-smoker in northern europe is pretty much taken to mean you have serious mental problems and either need to be pitied or feared. not so much the non-smoker part these days, if you try and smoke anywhere in britain at least you get shot.
i may have minor mental problems, as have many of us! but i need not be pitied! feared i like more...
the main one that seems to bother people is the not drinking thing. i think they think i'm going to judge them or something. like i'd judge them for having brown hair when mine is blonde? i have absolutely no problem with people drinking alcohol, and i sometimes wonder if the people who dislike my not partaking are maybe a bit worried about their own booze consumption.
the easiest people to go out with are people who don't care (which is most people). but it only takes one paranoid person in a group to make me feel like a prat. like i shouldn't be in a drinking environment as i can't fully enjoy. like i shouldn't enjoy being around drunk people...
in the long run though, i'm alot happier not drinking. i was very depressed when i drank alot, and i think the alcohol was contributary to the depression. i still get depressed, but not so dramatically. things don't get broken anymore, people aren't scared of me anymore.
buddhism has also helped me with the not-drinking thing. it's ok not to drink. there's a whole world of people out there who don't drink alcohol. i'm not alone! i can experience and learn and stuff without being off my face, which is what alot of nothern european culture at least seems to be grounded in...
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